Well, appropriately it's been about 4 months since my last blog post. I love reading other people's blogs but somehow updating my own doesn't carry quite the appeal. :) Things are going pretty well here in P-town. Well, actually to be totally honest this last week was a bit of a mess. I nicked a median, got a flat tire, was late to work, my crown fell off of my tooth, I found out my dental insurance sucks, I found out I have to get another root canal on that tooth because they didn't do the root canal completely last time, etc. Lots of stress, lots of battling feeling like I'm a failure because how in the hell am I going to be able to afford to get my teeth fixed and how much of a mess is my life that I can't even afford getting my teeth fixed. So there's your insight into the inner workings of my mind. It's a mess in there, you've been warned. :)
All in all, my life right now is a bit....frustrating. I mean, it's good. I'm working, I'm trying to be more independent and put myself out there more, I'm making an effort to go out and do things, because although it's hard to push myself to go outside of my comfort zone I always feel better when I do. The frustrating part is that I feel like I'm a bit stuck for the next several months. I'm just waiting. Waiting for Tricia to have her babies, waiting to start school again, waiting for my future to start. I'm working at a job with great kids and amazing co-workers, but I feel under appreciated by the management and am doing hard work for not a lot of money. I have made more connections with people, my co-workers have been so beyond lovely and helpful and encouraging. I still feel this big gap in my life though, a gap where my closest friends and family are supposed to be. I miss them, I miss being around people who know me through and through and get me and love me no matter what. It's hard to be without that. Really hard. But I'm learning and I am happy when I'm active and push myself to be out in the world instead of curled up in bed with Netflix or Hulu to keep me company. I'm so beyond excited to meet those babies, to be their aunt and help take care of them. I'm also excited to go back to school, to learn and grow and become what I want to be professionally. So, wait I will. Because what's coming up around the corner is worth it. See you in another couple of months, blogging world. :)
All in all, my life right now is a bit....frustrating. I mean, it's good. I'm working, I'm trying to be more independent and put myself out there more, I'm making an effort to go out and do things, because although it's hard to push myself to go outside of my comfort zone I always feel better when I do. The frustrating part is that I feel like I'm a bit stuck for the next several months. I'm just waiting. Waiting for Tricia to have her babies, waiting to start school again, waiting for my future to start. I'm working at a job with great kids and amazing co-workers, but I feel under appreciated by the management and am doing hard work for not a lot of money. I have made more connections with people, my co-workers have been so beyond lovely and helpful and encouraging. I still feel this big gap in my life though, a gap where my closest friends and family are supposed to be. I miss them, I miss being around people who know me through and through and get me and love me no matter what. It's hard to be without that. Really hard. But I'm learning and I am happy when I'm active and push myself to be out in the world instead of curled up in bed with Netflix or Hulu to keep me company. I'm so beyond excited to meet those babies, to be their aunt and help take care of them. I'm also excited to go back to school, to learn and grow and become what I want to be professionally. So, wait I will. Because what's coming up around the corner is worth it. See you in another couple of months, blogging world. :)
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